Microposts

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=715h-XJ9Wzg 🥹

I have never done anything ‘useful’. No discovery of mine has made or is likely to make, directly or indirectly, for good or ill, the least difference to the amenity of the world. ~ GH Hardy

I learnt about this quotation from GH Hardy today and if I cherry-pick the first two lines and post it out of context, I can pretend that it is almost applicable to me.

I started watching A Good Girl’s Guide to Murder after I saw a bunch of ads for S2 on Instagram. I love this teenage dark mystery crime solving genre so I instantly fell in love with the show. Not sure why I hadn’t heard about it earlier. Emma Myers is too cute!

I finished watching Absolute Value of Romance yesterday. I liked it mostly. I think it’s a reasonable take on the teacher-student relationship genre. They didn’t make it weird or did too much tropes.

The fdsdk incident has been very depressing for me. I am trying hard not to dwell on it, but it keeps coming back and I get angry and depressed every time it comes to mind.

This morning I am thinking what’s the entire point of everything in if the person spending the most time has no say and their words carry no weight. Why did I even bother to burn years of life for this…

Sigh.

Loved The Cure by Olivia Rodrigo. The music video was so retro and comic-y. So excited for the album!

Finished watching all four seasons of Invincible last week. I really liked how different it is from most superhero shows.

I also loved the underlying idea that, despite being named “Invincible”, Mark is anything but invincible in his own universe.

He’s constantly overshadowed by beings far stronger than him and he is constantly trying to live a normal human life filled with mistakes, compromises, and struggles, which is so far from a what a “superhero” would be doing.

I was thinking about writing a whole review posts but I don’t think I have gathered enough thoughts for that.

After thinking for a while, I just decided to leave formally by removing myself from Gitlab. I think it’s best for me and everyone else. I don’t have any willingness left to collaborate where I don’t receive the respect, gratitude and trust I think I deserve.

I wanted to archive some of my own projects I created in the namespace but Gitlab in their infinite wisdom has restricted that to the ‘owner’ role which I didn’t have. So none of those repositories will be maintained by me anymore. I may mirror/move and/or fork some of them which I perssonally need, elsewhere.

I don’t have anything against the software or the project itself; they are great but the some of the people, not so much, sorry.

I’m sorry, the first two of these microposts were me venting. I’ll try to post something fun later on…

Apparently, only I am not allowed to make certain decisions, citing maintainability concerns and past history of disasters on projects that I have maintained almost alone for 4+ years while everyone else can do the exact same thing, for example, block the inclusion of webengines or drop webengines citing, suprise, maintenance and CI concerns, and for which other people will get spammed with issues whenever private ABI goes out of sync and crashes apps to kingdom come.

If I dare, I will have my authority to reject a change questioned on a project that I maintained or will be told to “take a holiday” or get shouted at publicly.

I was not aware that, project maintainers weren’t allowed to “out-of-scope” certain changes or give a direction to the project.

It seems to be a common practice everywhere else. So common infact, might I say, some specific projects overuse it!

I’m sorry that I am sceptical about some things, that I didn’t drink the kool-aid of “progress”, that I wanted stability, that I wanted to sleep in peace, and that I am suspicious of hypothetical “paid work promises” after 7+ years of unpaid volunteer effort.

I wouldn’t have to vent if I thought any of this was fair to me.

I guess I learnt my lesson. Next time, either I’ll move away sooner or if the instance and permissions allow, ban certain people right away, instead of arguing for days. The constant stream of “AI slop” leads me to use the ban hammer way more often than before anyways, so it’s not a problem.